Friday, January 31, 2020

Life Struggles (last week of January)

This week: So at school, i have been being harassed by my ex boyfriend. I had told him to stop touching me and poking me. He then proceeds to hold my hand and kiss my neck. He then told me how I make him hard. I just sat there trying to not think about it. He won't stop kissing me or poking me even though I have yelled stop. Is me punching him and "breaking up" with him over text the right thing to do? I just need help and IDK how to tell him in person. He is autistic and I don't want to hurt him. But when he tells me that he wants me to handcuff him. And he wants me to cheat on my girlfriend. He also keeps saying he loves me, and I say nothing in return. I'm just really scared that if I tell him in person that he will try to hurt himself. What should I do?

Today: So I just got home. And right when I get to the parking lot, there is a sheriff talking with my downstairs neighbor. My other downstairs neighbor comes out with her dog. She sees that I look scared. She tells me to look down to the ground and walk up the stairs. When I get to the bottom of the stairs that I need to climb I listen for a little bit on what they are talking about. The only thing I hear is, "He tried to kill himself." I had tears forming in my eyes and I ran up the stairs. And when I get inside I start crying. I knew then that there was gonna be more sheriffs and that I was having an anxiety attack. I texted my mom and friends. My mom said that I should be fine, but my friends are worried about me.